My life in birds.

Almost every morning as I take Riley to school, I see a hawk. There is this one stretch of power line he (she?) always sits on. He stays perfectly still, looking out over a golf course with the woods and a lake behind him. Every morning, I look for him. I identify with him. I long to be like him. He is wild and free, doesn’t have to pay taxes or go to work or worry about life. He sleeps as late as he wants, catches a meal when he fancies one, and can soar high into the sky with (almost completely) relative safety. (What are the chances an eagle is around to snatch him up anyway?)

While we are different, we are much the same. I start out every morning with a drive, an ambition. Nothing can stop me. I get to work and mentally list all of the things I will conquer when I get home. I WILL organize that back bedroom. I WILL order recent family pictures. I WILL finish Riley’s scrapbook. I WILL run 2 miles. I feel strong, empowered, driven…just like that falcon.

On the way home, some days I see a flock of pigeons in that very same spot, usually about 10 of them. By the drive home, I am feeling less like my hawk and more like those pigeons. Bumbling, sort of lazy, just yapping away. They aren’t worried about organizing their nest or buying pics of their kids. They know that their 2 year old doesn’t care if the scrapbook is done (or even exists). They may fly two miles… but more likely they’ll just sit there and coo a little. 

I know that when I get home and walk to dog and get supper made and get Riley to bed and finish the laundry and get ready for tomorrow, it will be 9 p.m. I can either spend an hour or two with the hubby watching Firefly, or locked in the back bed room, desperately trying to decide if I still need to keep those National Geographic magazines from 2002 (give to hubby to take to school) and what I should do with my life-size cardboard cutout of Legolas (move to the bedroom, duh).

By the end of the day, all of those things I thought were so important in my hawk-phase are deemed less important when in my pigeon-phase. My pigeon self wants to veg on the couch with my mate while becoming more addictive to Words with Friends and laughing at The Office.

But then, the next morning, I get up and drive by that hawk again. Perhaps one day he will take me under his wing.

Or maybe just poop on my car.

Advertisements
This entry was posted in Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

8 Responses to My life in birds.

  1. I thought I was the only person that kind of thing happened to! 🙂 Hah

  2. Definitely gonna poop on your car. 🙂

  3. Larry says:

    nice post

  4. Rai says:

    I like this.
    I’m in college and the thought of working long hours every day so that I can have food and shelter and certain luxuries, and maybe limited time with someone I love, and 2 weeks out of 52 to go on vacation…..wearies me.

  5. Wendy says:

    Then read this: https://twoweektrial.wordpress.com/2011/04/01/eat-pray-grow-restless/
    You will feel way worse about yourself. 😉 Don’t get weary yet, you are just getting started..

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s